Archive for July, 2011


And the memory calls back. You saying-

“If I come in while you’re sleeping, don’t get up on my account.”

But it was inevitable. You are so like the sun,

And I, a mere man, diurnal to the last.


Dying to earn.


So I rise up when your face sets it’s light on my side of the globe.

And I will only rest once it’s gone.

All through the week, the light you give me- I work it away,

Only enjoying it at weeks end,

When you come and quicken me,

And once again my week begins,

And I work until I’m weak again.


You see, work is an art, and mine imitates death,

Because life does.

So many little deaths,

Trying to get it right with nightly practice.

My own was wordless and without motion,

Under a warmth of blankets pressed down like hair,

The layers echo patterns outward from my body,

Tartan, Paisley, Kente, and a patchwork that tells the story I’m to dream that night.

They cover my head,

So I close my eyes.

In that moment I know nothing but the darkness,

And it is peace.


They were a mass, milling about on a marked, plotted field of green.
This mass, black, surrounded by fashioned stones- some polished- large enough to take notice of,
They are still no Stonehenge.

But we fool ourselves into believing the lie of our immortality.

The black mass, a Black mass,
Celebrating a Black life.
All this black on Black, for a life that was Black,
And there’s nothing wrong with that.

It was a full life, colorful-
But mostly Black. It wasn’t choice.
It was circumstance.

Movements through that life,
So tied to a color,
Possibilities for that life,
Limited by an ‘other’.

That life made a mark,
So they do, in the green.
And like those before, they choose stone for this commemoration.

They say ‘This will last,”
While I think ‘Maybe longer than you.’
I’ve seen stones crushed to powder.
What does that do for a legacy?

To build a rock on death.
To mark that instead of life.
I don’t want to see her gravestone.
I want to see the birth stone.

And I want it to be…

Note from me: I often find myself thinking about the disparate views on what it means to be Black. Not in an introspective way. I’m almost positive it has no meaning, not in any inherent sense. It only means something once someone like myself interacts with another person. Reactions will differ infinitely given an infinite amount of subjective experiences. It’s something I’d like to term ‘Black Relativity.’ I propose that ‘Blackness’ only has meaning relative to the degree of reaction from the individual(s) with whom a Black person is interacting.
If I don’t respond in a way that renders what someone’s sense of ‘Blackness’ is as null, then I’ve had to either confirm or deny that sense. That is to say, ‘Blackness’ needs a *viewer, someone who- cued by a person’s complexion- is ready to make judgments ranging from an abstract idea like What it means to be inside black/brown skin to a specific idea like What her/his favorite music genre is. If we must interact for that sense to have worth, then when we are not interacting that sense is rendered null. Brings a new meaning the Black Death, doesn’t it?

I have done what I am born to do;

Love and be loved.

I sent it out.

I got it back.

I sang a song of Power,

And its melody was Energy.

I turned my thoughts to joy and goodness,

And my thoughts turned my life around.

In[Natural] Light and Magic

Lightning bugs in the grass…
They’re just bits of magic really.
Like the bits of gold that fall from the sky when it rains and the sun is out.
Minutes old light from the sun,
Catching eons old water from the heavens.
Taking it, for a second.
Transforming it.


The light, deadly when focused, is beauty when it’s scattered.
It casts all its personality across the clouds…
Or the clear, blue sky.
And it delights us.

Like lightning bugs in the grass.


Think with no words.

Only instinctual knowing.
Move forth with clear directive.
KILL or be Killed.

No reason ruling. Only nature.
Ride on the very back of nature.
Yet conceive no word for nature.


Know what it is. Its truth.
Know that giving it a name,
Will only diminish it.

Swallow up its beauty and its cruelty with your eyes.
Call to the moon.
But do not be like it.
Do not be phased.